It gets worse though because in addition to this soul-wrenching "right versus wrong" internal debate I seemingly have all the time, I look around at those that may have had “non-sanctioned” sex and you know what…contrary to what my popular belief was growing up that pre-marital relations would drastically ruin one’s life forever, they seem to be doing alright now. Some that I know are even happily married with families and doing very very well. Heck they don’t seem to be beat up about it at all, or dealing with serious consequences (apart from the occasional unplanned pregnancy or STD – and even then people seem to be managing fine). Apparently their little indiscretion wasn’t that debilitating after all? Maybe I was lied to that it’s such a big deal? Why can’t I have my fun? Why can’t I do what I want to do? I’ve waited long enough right?
Oh the sweet frame of the serpent is cunning…getting me looking side to side instead of up…
“Fear God and keep his commandments,
for this is the whole duty of man.
For God will bring every deed into judgment,
including every hidden thing,
whether it is good or evil.” -E12:13-14